Owning Our Stuff
Posted March 17, 2013
on:One of the hardest things about being human is owning when we are part of the problem, instead of the solution.
My guard has been up recently and I have been reacting quite defensively to things around me, and to people too. I’m taking things personally that maybe I shouldn’t.
Instead of communicating my feelings and my needs, I have been stubborn. I’ve helped shut down lines of communication, instead of keeping them open. I know that’s not going to help the situation, but I find myself doing it anyway. Can you relate?
I’m pissing myself off a lot these days, as I know that I should be proactive rather than reactive. But I can’t seem to help it.
Someone suggested I do some soul-searching. I am taking stock of what works and what doesn’t. I want to ditch the stuff that is not working. And own it.
It’s hard admitting when you’ve screwed up. Admitting it to both self and others.
But that’s what owning our stuff is all about. It’s hard and very much a part of the human condition.
March 26, 2013 at 12:28 AM
It’s not easy to be vulnerable. The fear of being hurt or treated unfairly can make one want to be careful. Maybe you needed to have time and space to evaluate what was necessary to change and what wasn’t. Some processes shouldn’t be rushed, and should be thoughtfully done. You obviously know changes in your life need to be made, so it’s not as if you’re denying reality. I’m sure you’ll figure it out!